We all make them, resolutions for the new coming year. Promises to be better, do better and eat less sugar. There’s a sense of redemption that comes with a new year, a chance to get it right and slough off the past and go forth with grandiose plans, all the while shouting “New year, new me!!” I am guilty of this, I’ve countlessly vowed to stop biting my fingernails, drink less coffee and actually put away laundry when it comes out of the dryer instead of throwing it in my guest bedroom for a week. This year I said I was done with resolutions, I am who I am and I am tired of feeling like a failure, I mean anyone can be on their best behavior for a couple of months. But I felt a tug on my heart, not to be a “new me” but to perhaps, work a little on the old me, the “me-me.”
I felt God speaking to me through many different people, telling me to spend time in His Word and the importance of it. I will shamefully admit that when I do my devotional, sometimes if the corresponding bible verse is too long or there are too many, I skim them or skip them all together. So I decided that when the new She Reads Truth study started I would read all of the verses and really meditate on the Word. Well lo and behold it’s the first week in January and I hadn’t read a bible verse yet. I could feel the distance in my walk with God and I’ve been filling that God-shaped hole in my life with shopping, errands, the gym, social media, stress over the holidays, my son’s first birthday party, gossip, television and so many other various worldly things. Today as I was scrolling through my Instagram feed for possibly the fifth time this morning, I found myself coveting what I saw in others posts, feeling inadequate and comparing what I had or didn’t have to them. My son was napping and here I was with two hours (God willing!!) of ‘free time’ and I was spending it like this?? I realized I hadn’t opened my bible, read my devotional or spent anytime with the Lord today.
Here I was trying to fill the God-shaped hole in my life once again with ungodly things. I immediately stopped what I was doing and delved into His Word. I read my devotional, and spent a long while in prayer with Him, thanking Him for His abounding faithfulness to me. Our Savior wants to talk with us with us every single day and reading His word is the most important way to do that. Timothy 3:16-17 says “All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the servant of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work.” I love that, God-breathed!! The bible comes from God, He gave us His Word for us to use, to learn from, to meditate on, to give us answers! But the Bible is not just a book on our night stand, it is “living and breathing,” (Hebrews 4:12) and like any living thing, it craves to be known. When we read God’s word it is so much more than studying words on a page, God moves it and works it into our life, to make us more like Him. Those red words on the page came from our Savior’s mouth and we get to read them!! So this year, I am not going to focus on a “new me,” because Jesus made me new when I became saved, and instead I am going to be confident of this, that he who began a good work in me will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus (Philippians 1:6) and really let the living word move in me. I wish I could tell you there’s a trick to reading your bible more but the only advice I can tell you is to make it a priority. Wake up with Jesus, get up thirty minutes earlier than you normally do, make some coffee or tea and be still with the Lord. Read His word, read your devotional and pray! Before the craziness of your day begins, start it with the peace that only comes from Him. Tomorrow, I will not turn on the news or mindlessly scroll through social media until I have spent time reading the Bible and praying!!! Such a small and simple change in my routine that will make all the difference.